If Only…

by | Aug 7, 2022 | Mental Health

alexa
Alexa's Bio
I'm a queer multi passionate introvert living full time on the Australian roads with my girlfriend. I make music, record sounds, explore, write and much more while dealing with many challenges along the way.

I keep getting stuck in my anger, an anger at my past! Sometimes becoming more worldly isn’t always helpful. As I’ve seen more and met more people, I’ve come to realise just how much I missed out on growing up, and how much I could have been…

If only…

This is where my brain sits, churning, pondering and eventually sitting with deep seeded anger at what I truly see as having been taken away from me. However, I’m perhaps starting to finally realise something, that of course I’ve known, but haven’t really been listening to.

Yes, my past sucked, and yes, I could have been so much if only, however while I keep stewing about it my current is going to miss out as well!

So is that fair to my now person?

Imagine if I stop yelling and screaming at the past and simply start now.

I take what I wish I had been given, and I give it to me now.

As an adult, I’ve spent many hours with trial and error learning how I learn best, and it turns out that my style of learning is incredibly different from traditional methods. Which also means that I learn much more efficient and likely would have hated learning those things when I was younger.

I can give me what I wish I could have had and become what I always wanted NOW.

At the end of the day, nothing is truly lost, unless I never start.

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